Certain times in life are more difficult than others. Personally, most of my struggles occur in my own head. It's like Satan is perched on my shoulder, telling me things that aren't true or are taken out of context... and for some reason, occasionally, I decide to listen to him. Instead of saying no from the very beginning, I hear him out as if he actually has something potentially valuable to tell me.
Yeah, I can be really stupid sometimes. But wait!
There's something really beautiful that comes out of this scenario. I stumble and fall, but there is always a loving Heavenly Father watching out for me. When I'm too distraught to hear Him speak, convinced that I'm not worth His time-- it's funny how I think that even though He lives outside time and has perfect love for me--He sends me earthly angels that can physically deliver the message.
This happened to me a few weeks ago. I was convinced that I was a wretched human being and there was no way that anyone could ever care about me. That darn Satan! He had me in some trains of thought that I never should have boarded. But Heavenly Father knows me, and He plans around my failings.
I had so many people reach out to me that week, and most of them had no idea that I wasn't doing well. I had phone calls, visits from old friends, visits from new friends, written notes, spoken compliments, chalk messages around my car, and an overwhelming display of love from those around me. I don't think that my friends really remember the things that they did--they're the sort of people that serve lovingly, instinctively, and without a second thought--but it certainly meant a lot to me.
At a time when I didn't feel like I could reach out to anyone, God sent angels to comfort me. In the eclectic assortment of people that reached out to me, I saw Heavenly Father moving in majesty to comfort a single one of His children. I felt not only love from those people, but through them from Heavenly Father. And as soon as I was willing to acknowledge the possibility of that love in my life, I could feel it and know that it was true.
Isn't it beautiful? Heavenly Father loves me, and He loves you. We are His children, and we are His top priority. He speaks to us. He finds ways to reach us when we feel unreachable. He reaches to us through the Holy Ghost, through His prophets, through scripture, through other people, through the very earth that we walk on...and on the flip side, we are often instruments in His hands. He moves through us as we become in the smallest part like our Savior, serving Heavenly Father. We are all connected together and to our Father.
So when you're feeling down, open your heart to Him. Just be willing to look for His love for you. See it in the people around you. See it in the beautiful sky, or the words that He has spoken to you in the past. Remember the wonderful things that He has done for you, the wonderful person that He has made of you, because I promise that there is a lot of good in you. I promise that He loves you, and He is doing everything that He can for you to grow and become closer to Him. Your life is meaningful, and there is a plan for you.
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